Kaylee Bargar Descript Video

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Justin Barton: Welcome everybody to the Can You Feel So Now podcast. I'm Justin Barton and man, I am spoiled to death to be able to sit down with amazing young men and young women and today is no different. I'm excited to get to know Kaylee Barger, someone I've never met before and who was introduced to me by a previous guest.

Justin Barton: In the in the podcast series and just excited to share and learn a little bit from her about her experience on her mission. So Kaylee, why don't you take just a minute, introduce yourself, tell us a little bit about yourself, your family, and some of the things that you love to do in life.

Kaylee Bargar: Okay, sweet. So I'm Kaylee Barger. I just got back from serving in the Sao Paulo Interlagos mission. And I'm the oldest of four. I have a sister and two brothers and they are everything to me. I love them to death and I love being with my family. That was something that I definitely learned was the value.

Kaylee Bargar: Of being present with people and being with somebody on my [00:01:00] mission. And yeah, I love people. I love being outside. And I love to read as well.

Justin Barton: So what types of books do you like to read?

Kaylee Bargar: I'm definitely like a Harry Potter nerd. But I love like romance and history books are awesome. I love learning about the past.

Kaylee Bargar: And, especially when they do a fictional Susana. I think that's really cool.

Justin Barton: All right, Kaylee, you said you served in the Brazil, Sao Paulo Interlagos mission. Is that correct? And what were the dates that you served approximate time range that you were there?

Kaylee Bargar: Yeah. So I started my mission in July of 2023 and I ended December, 2024.

Justin Barton: Yeah. That's awesome. And I'm super excited. I love speaking with people who have been home very recently. I've talked to somebody who's only been home two or three days and I just love the. [00:02:00] The energy that's still there.

Justin Barton: So tell me a little bit about this. You said you found the value of being present with others while you're on your mission. Tell me what that means to you. What does that mean to be present with somebody?

Kaylee Bargar: Yeah, because on the mission, or at least in my mission, we did this thing called Consat positiva like positive contact or like daily contact, and it's where you send a message or call somebody every day, like somebody that you're teaching, and I really noticed the difference of sending a message versus going to somebody's house and showing up for someone.

Kaylee Bargar: There was a lot of lonely people who just needed somebody to be there for them, just needed somebody to show up for their lives. And I felt like it was a really cool opportunity for me to see how missionaries and see how we as disciples of Christ are representatives of him, like showing up in people's lives, the way that Christ would show up in their lives.

Justin Barton: [00:03:00] Yeah, super interesting. So you mentioned sending a message, whether it be a phone call, a text message, whatever it may look like, and seeing somebody in person. Tell me what's the difference there? Are both positive or both helpful? And how, what's the difference in your experience?

Kaylee Bargar: That's a really good question, actually.

Kaylee Bargar: For me I, hate sending messages to people. I am a really bad texter. I probably have about 50 unread messages on my phone right now because I'm just, I'm really bad at it. But it's I, personally have been touched very often, especially on my mission. If my mom or my dad or somebody I love would just randomly send me a text message.

Kaylee Bargar: I, I felt so loved with that, so I think it's a difference, not saying that one is better than the other, but it just depends, because my family couldn't be there for me in that moment, but they showed their love for me through sending messages, but when I was in those areas, I could be there for those people, I could go to their houses and show up for them.[00:04:00]

Kaylee Bargar: So it's just a choice.

Justin Barton: That's really interesting and really cool. You mentioned that your family can't be there for you at that time. They can't be there with you while you're serving your mission. And this is a place I haven't gone in any of these conversations yet.

Justin Barton: Tell me about how hard it was maybe to be away from your family and how important it was maybe to be away for a year and a half and get on your own feet like that.

Kaylee Bargar: Gosh, I love that question. For me in the beginning, I can vividly remember many P days, just like crying to my mom. And I remember this one P day where it was really hard.

Kaylee Bargar: I was crying a lot. We hung up, we ended the P Day, because our P Day ended at 6. And then we went out to work, and my companion, she was so sweet, it was my trainer. She just took me on a walk around the block, and we went right back home. For me, it was really difficult, because I'm the oldest [00:05:00] sibling, and I want to be a part of these really big, and even the little moments of my family's life.

Kaylee Bargar: I'm very nostalgic, and my mom always called me her Peter Pan child. So I, just, I love Peter Pan. I love being there for those little random moments, but I definitely noticed the growth that happened especially my sister with me being away.

Kaylee Bargar: I was always there for them, like ready to catch them when they fell. And while I was away, they had to figure it out on their own. So, I really saw a lot of growth for them in that way too.

Justin Barton: So you say your sister, a lot of growth there because you weren't there to pick her up when she fell or to catch her before she fell and you had that same experience.

Justin Barton: You're out there learning a new language, a new culture. As a new missionary, you're with your trainer, you're really struggling, you're falling. You don't have your mom or dad or anybody else there to catch you before you scrape your [00:06:00] knees. Was it important for you to scrape your knees?

Justin Barton: Figuratively speaking and learn what you're made of in those situations.

Kaylee Bargar: Yes. I always considered myself a very confident person But I definitely learned How to balance that confidence with humility by scraping 90s. I was able to get back up with the confidence I had, but falling so many times really taught me how to incorporate confidence with humility.

Justin Barton: Talk to me about a couple times, maybe the most painful time when you fell and scraped your knees and how you dealt with that.

Kaylee Bargar: That is a really good question. I think probably it wasn't a singular moment, but my first time training, I really struggled.

Kaylee Bargar: I learned so much patience in that moment with myself and with other people as well. [00:07:00] That was when I grew the most on my mission, I realized that I really don't know what's best all the time, and that's okay. I did not want to learn that, because I hate being wrong.

Kaylee Bargar: It was something that was pretty tough for me, but definitely what I needed to learn.

Justin Barton: You mentioned that you are an oldest child. I am too. So I get it. Yes. And, with that comes for me, I'm going to speak from my perspective and you tell me if this makes sense to you comes the pressure of having to live up and blaze the trail for those to come behind you and say, Hey, Kaylee knows what the heck she's doing.

Justin Barton: I'm going to do what she did. Is that pressure something that has crushed you? Or is that something that has driven you to excel? And what's the combination of the two?

Kaylee Bargar: I think at times it has definitely crushed me or it's gotten close, but most of all, I think it's, a driving force for me because I want [00:08:00] to give my siblings.

Kaylee Bargar: A good role model because the world is really scary and I really want them to see that it is possible to have a good happy guts in our life, even in the world we live in.

Justin Barton: As, an oldest and, you want to blaze that trail and show people it's okay, how does perfectionism fall into that in your life?

Justin Barton: What is your conception of perfectionism in your own life?

Kaylee Bargar: I totally got targeted with that. I am such a perfectionist. I beat myself up a lot and I definitely did that on the mission because in the beginning of my mission, we didn't see like any results at all, we didn't have anybody at church.

Kaylee Bargar: We didn't have. Anybody we were teaching, for weeks we would go without lessons. We would just walk around the streets, knocking on people's doors. And, that was really hard. And I wanted to do I was doing everything right, and I wasn't seeing the [00:09:00] results. Which really sucked. But, I, God definitely showed me a lot of mercy.

Kaylee Bargar: My mom always says, Give yourself grace and that was a really big theme in my mission was learning to give myself grace and give that grace to others as well.

Justin Barton: Ooh, give it to others also. Tell me how hard that is to give grace to others when you want to be so perfect and expect perfection from others.

Justin Barton: I'm pointing these fingers right at me, man. But I can see you in me. So how come it's so important to give grace to others?

Kaylee Bargar: Because as disciples of Christ, we, that's our duty. He asks us to forgive. 70 times 7, that's infinitely, pretty much, and it's something that's necessary.

Justin Barton: . So, you also mentioned, and I think you've already [00:10:00] transitioned into this a little bit, but something you said, it's okay to not know. Why is that important for you now in your life that you recognize that? And how do you take, how can you take that forward into your life from here going, you know what, I'm going to do my best, but if I fall I'm okay with that.

Kaylee Bargar: Yeah. That I really had to learn a lot about God's love. And a lot about how the atonement isn't just for when you sin, it's also for when you aren't enough, when you feel like you aren't enough. The atonement is infinite. , I listened to this one BYU speech by Brad Wilcox. And he said, so he put two points on a piece of paper, one at one and one at the other.

Kaylee Bargar: And asked the girl that was with him to draw a line. To where , like our effort, and Jesus Christ's grace. And he [00:11:00] said that there isn't a line. Jesus Christ's grace fills up the whole thing. So, even when I'm not perfect, and even when other people aren't perfect I can take a step back, I can breathe, and I can remember that it's not up to me.

Kaylee Bargar: It is not my job to judge these people, or to to give them salvation. It's just my job to be their friend and to love them as much as I can.

Justin Barton: Is that perspective on grace what's your part in what's Christ's part on this piece of paper? Has that shifted since before your mission until now,

Kaylee Bargar: yeah, I didn't understand the Atonement at all before my mission, but to be completely honest I repented because I knew that I had to because I was like, oh, I'm not going to heaven if I don't repent. But I really learned that it is personal. 100%. It is Christ being there with us, arm in arm, the whole entire way.

Kaylee Bargar: And he is stepping with us. He's not [00:12:00] there at the finish line waiting for us. He's right next to us.

Justin Barton: And what importance does that, how does that change things for you in your life today?

Kaylee Bargar: Yeah I definitely have more peace. Because of that, I'm not constantly worried about if I'm doing everything right, if I am being perfect enough, if I'm working towards perfection enough, the way that I need, that it needs to be done.

Kaylee Bargar: I have that prayer in my heart, and I'm listening to the whisperings of the Spirit. And I act and wait for the confirmation.

Justin Barton: And how does that peace and

Justin Barton: acceptance, I'm going to use the word acceptance of things as they are affect you as being an oldest sister now with your younger siblings, , do you still have to catch them before they fall or what does that look like now? [00:13:00]

Kaylee Bargar: That's awesome. I feel like , I'm not catching them so much anymore.

Kaylee Bargar: I'm just helping prepare them more for the fall because the fall is going to come. I was talking to my brother. He just turned 16, so he's got a lot of big things coming in his life. And I was talking to him, and he's a super quiet dude. He doesn't really express himself very much.

Kaylee Bargar: But, I was just letting him know hey, I'm here for you. Whatever goes down, I'm here for you. And that's for all my siblings.

Justin Barton: . I think there's so much power to that, being able to go, you know what, hey, here's my experience. You do what you do. And no matter what comes of it, I'm here for you.

Justin Barton: I've got your back. I'm here for you. I may not catch you before you fall, but I'm here for you. Did you have any of those types of experience on your mission? Whether it be with a companion or whether it be with friends that you were working with, or maybe members you were working with where.

Justin Barton: You watched them fall, but you were still there for [00:14:00] them.

Kaylee Bargar: One of my really good friends her name is Yasmin. She is incredible. And unfortunately, after she decided to bring the church into her life, she has decided to leave it again. That's really hard. I saw how the gospel lit up her life and her boy's life.

Kaylee Bargar: I saw how it completely changed her and how it brought that hope that she was searching for back into her life. But you just have to let them make their own decisions. That was something I learned, was accepting other people's agency. That's a really big part of it. And I feel like that was something that really helps with my perfectionism as well, was being like, well, shoot, I can't control you.

Kaylee Bargar: So I might as well just let it go.

Justin Barton: Yeah, those are all very powerful things. Was there a verse or [00:15:00] passage of scripture that seemed to be a pattern in your mission that you kept coming back to that brought you strength or brought you guidance at repeated times?

Kaylee Bargar: Yes, 100%. It was these verses in Luke 12. Verses 27 and 28. They say, Consider the lilies how they grow. They toil not, they spit not. And yet I say unto you, That Solomon, in all his glory, Was not arrayed like one of these. If then God so clothe the grass, Which is today in the field, And tomorrow's cast into the oven, How much more will he clothe you?

Kaylee Bargar: Ye of little faith. End.

Justin Barton: Tell me why that's so important and powerful to you.

Kaylee Bargar: I love those scriptures. They, from, since the CTM, since I was in the Missionary Training Centre, those sources have touched me and have helped me realize that [00:16:00] God

Kaylee Bargar: There were countless moments in my mission where me and my companion would come home from working that day and we would just be in awe of how God took care of his children through us that day. It was such a privilege to be able to be the Lord's hands in that way and to see how he takes care of every single person in the exact right time.

Justin Barton: Give me an example of one of those times that as you looked back at it at the end of the day, you went, wow, how was I so privileged to be a part of this miracle?

Kaylee Bargar: Oh, that's so hard. There's so many to choose from. But the first one that came to my mind was older man. He had been taught by some sisters in the past and it was in this part of our area that we don't go very often.

Kaylee Bargar: And we decided to go there that day. We knocked on his door and he was there. And he was like, Oh, like he was so surprised to see us. [00:17:00] And we shared a message with him about The gospel and about the hope of Christ. And you could literally see like the light returning to his eyes. He was an older man. He was a widower. And he was depressed and he was alone. All he had was this crazy cat and just these two girls come along and give him exactly what he needed in that moment to feel God's love. And it's just simple things like that, but just. Wow.

Justin Barton: I love when those simple, supposedly meaning, meaningless things bring so much meaning to others.

Justin Barton: And then in turn, bring so much meaning to you. And I think, that goes along with this concept of consider the lilies how they toil, not neither do they spin. And yet. God takes care of them, gives them all they need, and they're beautiful, it's not because of anything they do, and it's not because of anything you did, other than be willing to go out and do this.

Justin Barton: And [00:18:00] God magnified and light put light, shone light through you. So any other situations like that, that you're like, man, that miracle is something that's so important and powerful that I really want to share it?

Kaylee Bargar: Yeah. There was this lady she was also an older lady. I'm so glad that God let me touch so many older people's lives.

Kaylee Bargar: I love them so much, she is so sweet and she is a member of the church who is not active at the moment, me and my companion, we open the area, we show up there and we're so excited to get going we knock on her door and she lets us in, which was crazy. We start visiting with her and we visit with her every week.

Kaylee Bargar: And after these visits, she comes to church and she keeps coming and she keeps coming. And then she went to an activity and then she keeps coming to church and taking the [00:19:00] sacrament and partaking of the Savior's. And I just feel like, that was such a privilege. Reactivation is something that is really difficult, but it is just as miraculous as baptizing somebody.

Justin Barton: . So a couple of things that come off of what you just shared there, the two miracles you've mentioned, and you mentioned how much you love working with older people. Is that something that's new or is that something that you've always just felt comfortable doing?

Kaylee Bargar: I think that's the thing I've always felt comfortable doing.

Kaylee Bargar: There was this one time growing up, I went to an activity with her and I was like, mom, I made a new friend. And she was like, oh, who? And it was this lady who was like 45. It's that's not old. That's not old. But just I was going to say, are

Justin Barton: you calling me old?

Kaylee Bargar: And I just, I feel like my grandparents, they were just here all four of them, which has never happened.

Kaylee Bargar: They've never been all four together in my house [00:20:00] before, which was incredible. It was such an enlightening experience. I loved sitting down and just hearing the wisdom that they have. I really need to appreciate these people more. And I definitely saw that on my mission.

Kaylee Bargar: My parents have worked with older people my whole life. My dad's an executive director of a nursing home. So I've always been surrounded by that.

Justin Barton: Yeah, , so what do you envision yourself doing with your life moving forward?

Justin Barton: What's your next step? And what do you envision the next 10 years looking like?

Kaylee Bargar: Yeah, so I actually this week I am moving up North to go to school and I'm gonna study to be a speech and language pathologist So I am so excited about that I feel like that was another thing that God just threw into my life at the perfect moment I had no idea what I wanted to do.

Kaylee Bargar: I took a class and now I'm in love with it

Justin Barton: That's a great place to [00:21:00] get into. Why do you think you got led to becoming a speech language pathologist?

Kaylee Bargar: I think it's, definitely a tender mercy because my whole life I've grown this love for service and I think that's why my mission was something that I always wanted to do.

Kaylee Bargar: My mission was my dream and to be able to serve the Lord and serve people on such an intense level for such a long time. Like a long period of time like that was something I just love. And now I get to do that my whole life. It's such a rewarding job. It's something that is changing people's lives.

Justin Barton: All right. Let's jump back to the mission now is you, did you serve under one or two mission presidents?

Kaylee Bargar: One.

Justin Barton: So you had the same mission president, your whole mission. That's so cool. So from your mission president, from your mission leaders, maybe his wife, was there a theme that really drove you during your mission and as a launching point into the rest of your life?[00:22:00]

Kaylee Bargar: Yes, there was actually a couple, but I'll start with this one that Obedience is Very important. And exact obedience brings miracles. And I testify to that. I testify that miracles are real and if we do the things that God has asked us to do, miracles will happen. Our life will go the way it's supposed to.

Kaylee Bargar: Way better than we ever thought.

Justin Barton: . And you said you had another theme beyond the exact obedience brings miracles.

Kaylee Bargar: Yeah, so our, at the very end of my mission, the mission leaders came out with a theme for the mission and it was, we honor the name of Jesus Christ with our thoughts and our actions.

Kaylee Bargar: And that is something I'm going to use for my entire life. To remember that, even though I don't have the plaque on every day, I still am a representative of Jesus Christ because I have taken his name upon [00:23:00] me. It is engraved on my heart, and I need to honor him in everything I do.

Justin Barton: What does that look like for you today, now that you don't have the plaque, the name tag on?

Kaylee Bargar: I think it's trying to consecrate myself in all of the other things I do. Consecrating myself to my family, to my school, to my church callings, to my temple worship. Putting my whole heart Into everything I do, and doing it with the right purpose, not just doing it because, Oh, I'll just take a picture of the temple and everyone will know I was at the temple.

Kaylee Bargar: But really doing it because I know I need to be there. I know that's where I'm going to find the answers and the protection I need.

Justin Barton: Do you have an example of some time in your life, whether before mission, during mission, after mission, where you have found a solution to a problem in your life in the temple?

Kaylee Bargar: Yeah, , [00:24:00] so like we were talking about, we're both perfectionists. And with that, it was really hard for me to know if I really was doing a good job at things because I set this really high standard for me and it's hard for me to meet my own standard.

Kaylee Bargar: And when I came home from my mission, I just really wanted to feel the Lord's approval. I heard from my mission president, I heard from my companions, I heard from my parents, from my stake president, that I did a good job. And that's great, that's awesome, that made me feel really good. But I needed it from the Lord, because that's who I was serving.

Kaylee Bargar: And he actually brought me to I went to the temple the day after I got home. And I got to the Celestial Room, and I opened the Book of Mormon. And I immediately thought of Alma 7, which is a chapter I use a lot on my mission. And just these scriptures about Christ and his life, and [00:25:00] how incredible his sacrifice is really showed me that he had accepted my offering.

Justin Barton: Was there a specific verse in Alma 7 that you went to that was that answer that said it's acceptable?

Kaylee Bargar: Yeah, I remember verse 7 really stuck out to me. It says, For behold, I say unto you, there be many things to come. And behold, there is one thing which is of more importance than they all.

Kaylee Bargar: For behold, the time is not far distant that the Redeemer liveth and cometh among his people. And that just put everything into perspective for me. Maybe I didn't do everything perfectly on my mission. I did mess up a lot. I didn't teach people, maybe, exactly the way they needed to. Because I messed it up with my words.

Kaylee Bargar: The most important thing is that Jesus lives. [00:26:00] And that he's coming again. And that I did what I could.

Justin Barton: Yeah you mentioned earlier and also just now that you strive to listen for the still small voice. You strive to listen to God and His direction in your life and to try and follow that.

Justin Barton: What does that look like? How do you hear the Lord in your life as you seek that revelation and that guidance?

Kaylee Bargar: This has been a long time coming to learn how to use the Spirit, but especially on my mission, I've realized that for me, It's a lot through I just go with something and then I feel how it feels and if it feels right Then I keep going, and if it doesn't, I take a step back, I pray again, and I try and [00:27:00] redirect what the Lord wants me to do.

Justin Barton: How can that work now that you're not on your mission and you're making decisions now and going forward with those?

Kaylee Bargar: I think it's going to be a lot harder for me because in Brazil, I was just, it was either, Oh, do we knock on this door or do we knock on this door?

Kaylee Bargar: But in real life, I think it requires a lot more bravery and a lot more courage. Because now I'm making really important decisions, whether that's who I'm going to go on a date with, what job I'm going to apply for where I'm going to live. But I think all of it just really relies on if I'm willing to accept and act upon God's will.

Justin Barton: Let's talk about pre mission Kaylee, would you have considered yourself courageous and brave before your mission?

Kaylee Bargar: Maybe. I think spontaneous and a [00:28:00] little crazy is a better way to say it.

Justin Barton: Okay.

Kaylee Bargar: But no, that's actually something I had never really thought of before.

Justin Barton: So now as you're pondering it, what's the difference, do you think, or is there a difference between spontaneous and crazy and courageous and brave?

Justin Barton: And if so, what does that look like? What's that contrast?

Kaylee Bargar: Yeah, I definitely think there is a difference. I think spontaneity is something a little of the natural man, it's being just like, . Like that scripture where it says Oh, drink and be merry for tomorrow we die.

Kaylee Bargar: But courage and bravery definitely has a more spiritual center because you, it has Confidence in God behind it, knowing that you can do this. If you take the step, there is going to be more strength and more [00:29:00] guidance beyond that.

Justin Barton: I've never heard it put this way that spontaneity is more than natural man, but I think that is.

Justin Barton: That's absolutely a perfect way to say that in the spiritual realm that you know what if I'm just being spontaneous and flying off by the seat of my pants I'm letting the natural man lead and wherever that goes it could be a blast, but it could cause a lot of problems, right?

Kaylee Bargar: Yeah! And

Justin Barton: courage, it can be a blast, but if I'm acting in courage and following what the Lord's inviting me into saying, Hey this is a, looks like you're stepping off a cliff, but trust me there's a bridge there that you just can't see.

Justin Barton: There's just as much excitement there, but there's progress, right? What comes to your mind as I share that with you?

Kaylee Bargar: I loved what you said about the bridge. That's like, when we are relying on the Lord, it brings a sense of security which goes along with that [00:30:00] piece that I was talking about earlier.

Kaylee Bargar: I actually wrote something down in preparing for this so when we serve him worthily, we can have the confidence that we are living our lives the best way that we can. And we can have confidence in that bridge is secure and that is the right life for us. He will love and guide us along the way.

Justin Barton: , thank you for even bringing more of that image into my mind that I was seeing there as we were talking. Alright, so Kaylee as you continued through your mission, how do you now deal with rejection? I, understand as a missionary there's a lot of rejection that happens.

Justin Barton: How can you handle that rejection and carry that forward into your life? Because rejection continues, let's be honest.

Kaylee Bargar: That [00:31:00] was something so hard for me at the beginning of my mission because along with being imperfectionist, I am 100 percent a people pleaser. I don't know if you've ever heard of Yes Man Syndrome, but I definitely have that.

Kaylee Bargar: I just want to make people happy and I just want them to like me and being one in a foreign country where I was honestly I was like minority and I was different and I didn't know what these people were saying and they didn't understand me, I had to learn how to accept rejection really fast.

Kaylee Bargar: But, applying that to my life, after the mission it's okay. It is going to be just fine. Of course I can take it, because I have a broader perspective now. I have that eternal perspective that President Nelson spoke [00:32:00] about. I know that if this door closes, another window or another door is gonna open somewhere else.

Justin Barton: Yeah, consider the lilies and the grass which today is and tomorrow's cast into the oven. God's gonna take care of you, right?

Kaylee Bargar: Exactly.

Justin Barton: That's awesome. Good. All right. So before we start wrapping up with a couple of questions that I like to close these Conversations out with is there anything else that's weighing on your heart?

Kaylee Bargar: I just would love to share a little of my testimony that I know That God loves us, that He is a very caring Father, that there is nothing that will ever separate us from that love. And that his son, sacrificing his son the way he did, was the greatest demonstration of that love, and that it is freely given.

Justin Barton: What importance does that have in your life now, Kaylee?

Kaylee Bargar: [00:33:00] I feel like I am able to so much better love those around me, knowing that God loves me so much. Knowing that he trusted me to take care of the people. of Sao Paulo Interlagos. I know that he can trust me and he will trust me to take care of the others as well.

Justin Barton: Beautiful. All right, let's wrap up with a few questions here. This project is, as is called Can You Feel So Now? It's based on Alma chapter 5 verse 26, which reads. And now I say to you, my brethren, if you have experienced a change of heart and felt to sing the song of redeeming love, I would ask, can you feel so now?

Justin Barton: So let's talk about the change of heart that you've experienced over the last handful of years as you've gone preparing for your mission on your mission. And now what does that change of heart look like?

Kaylee Bargar: I would just like to say that it [00:34:00] was not something overnight. I hope that anyone who listens to this or anyone ever will realize that.

Kaylee Bargar: That mighty change of heart that they speak about in the scriptures is not something that just happens. It's not like getting a haircut. It's like aging. It takes a really long time. And I, have definitely changed a lot. And it's hard to see that on changing yourself, but I have, and I still can't really see it, but I can feel it.

Justin Barton: Do your siblings and your parents and your friends and those around you, do they see that change of heart has happened in you? Do they say, wow, Kaylee, something's different here?

Kaylee Bargar: Yeah it's been, really cool and it's been interesting that a lot of what I've heard is not that, oh wow, you changed a lot.

Kaylee Bargar: It's that [00:35:00] I'm still me, but it's just been magnified, I guess you could say. It's been expanded, it's been, I've been turned into a better version of who I was.

Justin Barton: And I love that, that magnification, that change, that evolving continues to happen if I am willing to continue to allow the Lord to lead.

Justin Barton: That's awesome. All right. So what does it mean to you to sing the song of redeeming love? If you've felt to sing the song of redeeming love, what the heck does that mean in your, interpretation?

Kaylee Bargar: Oh my gosh, I love this. I, totally 100 percent felt that on my mission. To sing the song of dreaming up, to feel like you just want to run through the streets and scream into everyone, Jesus loves you!

Kaylee Bargar: There is a way to happiness and he wants you back and I, that's why I love missionary work so [00:36:00] much is because you get to share that joy. It is a real joy, something that like, it feels like you're just like, it feels you up all the way and just makes your heart want to burst. And that's the joy that Jesus Christ offers us.

Kaylee Bargar: And I feel like the best way that we can share that with people is through our example. Through sharing, being joyful, and showing people that you're joyful is how you can share best.

Justin Barton: Love it. And I'd love to see you running around the streets of Gilbert, Arizona. Jesus loves You That would be, well, interesting.

Justin Barton: But I love that you can do that with your actions and the love that you share for others, right? All right. So the final phrase in that, can you fail? So now, so what I love to do here is let's jump in a time machine. Let's jump ahead 10 or 15 years. You've graduated from school. You've got your, license.

Justin Barton: As an SLP, maybe you're married, maybe you have a kid or two whatever that looks [00:37:00] like. But future you is struggling and not feeling so now, you know Maybe life is hard as things haven't worked out as you planned Exactly. I want you to sit down with yourself and coach yourself up saying hey, what's going on?

Justin Barton: What do you do now that you could coach your future self to do to be able to feel so now?

Kaylee Bargar: Oh, a scripture actually came to mind it's in Ether 12, and this is something, because a lot of people came up to us on the streets and would ask for a scripture, and this is one of my, the ones that I use the most.

Kaylee Bargar: It's Ether 12, verse 4, Wherefore whoso believeth in God , might with surety hope for a better world, yea, even a place at the right hand of God, which hope cometh with faith. Making an anchor to the souls of [00:38:00] men, which would make them sure and steadfast, always abounding in good works, being led to glorify God.

Kaylee Bargar: I think I would say to myself that if you are doing the little things that you need to be doing, it is going to be just fine. You are going to be just fine. Something that I had an epiphany about on my mission was that our mission is just, a reflection of our existence in this life.

Kaylee Bargar: We get this call to go to this place, and then we, experience joy, and we get really sad, and we get really tired, and we work really hard, and then one day we go home, or we die, right, and we have to go back to the presence of God, and that's just like our lives, and I would tell myself that this is just a millisecond in your existence.

Kaylee Bargar: If your mission was that short that tiny of your life, this moment is so precious.

Justin Barton: [00:39:00] Thank you so much, Kaylee. Would you mind taking a minute and bearing your testimony in Portuguese for us?

Kaylee Bargar: Yes, I would love to.

Kaylee Bargar: I have no doubt about that. I know that this is the restored Church of Jesus Christ. And that through the ordinances and agreements that we make here, in His Church, we will be able to be with our Father in Heaven for eternity. And I know that the Book of Mormon is the Word of God. And that there we will find all the answers that we need.

Kaylee Bargar: And I leave these things in

Kaylee Bargar: the name of Jesus Christ, amen.

Justin Barton: Amen. Obrigado.

Kaylee Bargar: Awesome.

Justin Barton: Thank you so much. This has been so meaningful for me, Kaylee. I hope it's been meaningful for you and has brought you some, joy.

Kaylee Bargar: Very much so. Thank you so much, Justin.