Hailey Bollar Video

[00:00:00] Welcome everybody to the Can You Feel So Now podcast. I'm Justin Barton and I am so spoiled that I get to talk with these recently returned missionaries and just ask them questions and learn about their lives and the amazing things that they're doing and will do in their lives. Today I'm excited to sit down across the miracle of Zoom technology with Hailey Bellar.

Hailey, why don't you tell us a little bit about yourself, where you're from, a little bit about your family, and things you love to do in your life.

Yeah, of course. My name is Hailey, and I am from Utah. I'm from a family of five kids, and I am the fourth, mostly girls.

We have one boy, he's right in the middle of us. And we have so much fun. I have six nieces and nephews and they are like the best part of everything. They make everything so fun. But I love sports. I love basketball. I love golf.

I love [00:01:00] anything that has to do with sports. I think they're probably my favorite thing to watch to do. I've recently found a love for hockey watching it. So I love lots of. Sports. That's the big thing in my family.

Love it. And if somebody asks me, what's your favorite sport, I will say baseball.

And I will say, but the only other true sport is hockey. . It's beautiful. And, I love that you come from a large family. You're already an aunt with a whole bunch of nieces and nephews and everything. Tell me how having nieces and nephews.

How did having, being that, having that experience with young children and working with them help you?

Honestly, a lot., I've always loved kids so much, but when I started having nieces and nephews, it just felt different. I loved them so, so much. And I got to be with them. I started being at 15, so I got to be with them for a while.

That was one of the [00:02:00] hardest parts about going on my mission was not being there when they're growing and my family was having more. And so it was just hard, but as I was around these other kids, I fell in love with them and they reminded me so much of my nieces and nephews back home.

And it was so cool to be able to teach them after I've already learned a way to talk with kids and communicate in a way that they could understand. And so we would teach them, and we would use these games, and we would use certain things to be able to connect with them on a different level, I know that Jesus Christ and Heavenly Father helped me with that before by giving me that opportunity to be able to help me on my mission to have these amazing experiences, because some of my most amazing experiences were with kids, and their parents, and Having that connection.

Yeah. Thanks for sharing that. Where were you called to serve? Where was your assignment and what dates approximately were you there?

I [00:03:00] served in the Texas Houston South mission and . I was in Texas like June 2nd until October 14th of this year, so June 2nd, 2023, and then October 14th, 2024, I came home.

That's awesome, and I think you're probably the third person I've interviewed from the Houston, Texas South Mission now. The missionary work is going on even you missionaries are like, dude, I gotta share this With these people that I know and love from my mission so that they can have the same experience.

So you say it's the best place. Why is the Texas Houston South mission, the best mission?

Well, it just has my heart so much. It makes me, so happy. One of the reasons why I just love Texas so much is because that's the place where I grew the most in my life for a year and a half, I changed the most in Texas and, it's like the best parts of me that I grew the most there.

And so one, that's one reason why I hold that place so dear, but the people are [00:04:00] amazing. From all different walks of life, from all over the world, Houston is the melting pot and it is just so cool to be able to learn other people's experiences from Russia, from Africa, from just everywhere, , and so it was just so cool to be able to, see those experiences and to fall in love with these amazing people that sometimes come from nothing, but

jesus Christ loves them all the same. And that's something that I really saw and just fell in love with, Houston, Texas.

Yeah. So when you opened your call, did you expect that Houston would be a melting pot? You would encounter people from all over the world in all different situations, or did you think it would be?

Well, a big city different from where you're coming from, but similar to what you had experienced.

Yeah, I didn't know that it was going to be like so diverse. I didn't know that there were going to be so many different people. I didn't know I would be teaching people from different countries. I didn't piece that together, but I did.

[00:05:00] So it was a surprise to me.

Yeah. You mentioned that you love Texas because that's where you grew the most. Give me one or two examples of areas that you grew drastically in. Let's, talk about the thing that, as you look at, you're like, man, I am a different Hailey than I ever was before because of these experiences.

Of it? Of course. Yeah. So I, didn't really fully read the Book of Mormon from front to back before my mission. And I had the opportunity when we got there that our mission president and his wife gave us this challenge to read the Book of Mormon and mark the Doctrine of Christ.

And the Doctrine of Christ is just things that Jesus Christ taught with faith, repentance, baptism, receiving the gift of the Holy Ghost, and enduring to the end. And We mark everything that mentions Jesus Christ as well. So I would just mark all those things in the book of Mormon and I got so invested and I fell in love with it.

It made me so excited to do my own personal [00:06:00] study and to talk about it even more. And I fell absolutely in love with the book of Mormon it grew my testimony more than anything else ever has. And that is one thing that has changed in my life is if a day goes by and I miss it, it's like the worst day ever.

It's so sad. I love it so much. It has changed my life. And I, know the Book of Mormon to be true. I know that now more than ever in my entire life. So I'm so grateful for that opportunity. And another opportunity I think is just My love for, people and seeing them the way Jesus Christ does. I, always, have loved people and I love talking to people, but when I went on my mission, it was so different.

Seeing them through Christ's eyes I feel like helped me for after the mission as well, because you see so many people from different experiences and you have to see them through Christ's eyes or else it's not going to go the way that [00:07:00] he would want it to go. And so it's just really cool to be able to, experience that.

Give me an example of seeing someone through Christ's eyes that maybe had you been looking at them through Hailey's eyes, you would have seen them differently and went, eh I don't want to, I'm not going to encounter or, approach this person, but seeing them through Christ's eyes really changed that.

Yes, I had so many of these experiences, but one of my favorite was a lady that, so, I was serving in downtown Houston, and they had just recently let sisters finally come back in, and so we were just told to be extra careful So we were trying to be extra careful and we were going places that dark.

And so one night we went to this complex and dark and our goal was to just get in, visit this person and leave. And we were walking in pretty, pretty [00:08:00] fast. And we walked past this lady who she was smoking. She seemed like she was having a rough day. One of those where you're like, It's your judgment. It's Oh, it's not going to work.

Nothing's going to work. And we were already having a rough day, but we walked past her and the spirit hit me like a ton of bricks. And I just remember hearing, honestly, I was getting chastised. It was how dare you just judge that off of. Her smoking and you having a bad day, right? And so I turned around and I was so embarrassed and I went up and I asked her if she had ever heard about the Book of Mormon.

And she immediately dropped her cigarette and she wanted to talk with us. She was like, I've never heard about the Book of Mormon and immediately went into her life. And I just fell in love with her. I fell in [00:09:00] love. She told us all of these hard things that she had gone through and that she's going through.

She has three boys actually that she's trying to help feed. She's trying to help clothe them and they just come through so many different situations. And we went through a lot with her and put her on date a few times to be baptized. She was struggling with the cigarettes. And with, quitting a few things in her life, but she loved Jesus Christ so much.

And she was reading the book of Mormon and she saw it change her life. And every time that I feel like missionaries would normally be like, okay, we can take a step back and give her a break. We just felt Jesus Christ and heavenly father's love for her so strong that we did not feel like we could stop teaching her.

We had to keep pursuing because she needed that constant nourishment and love and support.

No, I love that. Super cool. Thank you for sharing that Hailey. Now I'm going to ask you a question about this. When you look in the mirror, [00:10:00] do you see yourself through Hailey's eyes or through Jesus's eyes?

And as you think about that, what does that look like as you look at yourself?

That's such a good question because that is something that I struggle with actually. My whole life I have , probably 98 percent of the time, I look at myself through Hailey's eyes and a lot of the time isn't nice to myself and, who I am and what I look like or what I like to do, just all these different things.

I feel like I am my worst critic and, Satan knows exactly how to get into my head and to tell me these things that I've been telling myself for years and years On my mission, I saw myself the way that Jesus Christ saw me and I would look at myself in the mirror and I saw myself change and this light that was in me I fell in love with that.

I fell in love [00:11:00] with this my spirit and who I really am and it was like the coolest experience ever to learn who I truly am and to learn who Christ wants me to be and it I just know that your spirit is so much more who you are. It is who you are. That's the, person who wants to come out.

That's the person who wants to live this life. And that's something that I learned. And I come back home and it's. It's getting hard again to see that as I'm just trying to keep that up.

All right, Hailey, we're going to sit here for a minute because this is powerful. So as you looked at yourself on your mission and you fell in love with yourself for who you really were and who Christ wanted you to be, who are you, Hailey?

Who are you really? Talk to us about that.

Yeah. I know for a fact that I am a daughter of God. And that he loves me so, so much. And [00:12:00] he sees my full potential. And I think that was just the most important thing. I'm a daughter of God. I need to see myself that way. And all of his sons and daughters need to see themselves that way because it will change their mindset.

If they truly believe it, it will mean so much more a daughter of God. Like he's our king. You are his princes, princesses, his everything. You mean everything to him. And I feel like that will just change everything if you can see that.

And Hailey, you are a daughter of a king.

And, people, people who aren't able to see this, you need to see the light in Hailey's eyes and the smile that she has. She emanates this. And I want you all to just Recognize that and recognize it in yourself.

The next part of that question that I had though was you said And I saw who Christ wanted me to be Hailey who does Christ want you to be? What does that path look like for [00:13:00] you?

I Know that christ wants me to be a lifelong disciple of jesus christ. He wants me to serve that is one calling that I know that I learned on my mission is that's who My spirit is, my spirit loves to serve and I did not love to serve before my mission.

I did not want to go make cookies for the neighbors. I didn't want to rake up their leaves. Service was not a part of my life, but I learned to love it more than anything on my mission and, to really find out who I am.

Through service. And so I learned that Jesus Christ wants me to serve. He wants me to give everything I have to him and to his brothers and sisters and Heavenly Father's children. And he wants me to help them in any way that I can through the gospel of Jesus Christ, through the things that I've learned.

And that's one thing that I learned about [00:14:00] myself that was huge.

And as you learned about service, what was maybe an example of a time you're like, I don't want to serve, but here's the opportunity. And then I take it. And it changed something for you. It changed that desire. Now I want to serve. That is who I am at my core.

Well, on your mission, you serve so, so, so much. You're serving every single day. You're serving different people. . I think it all started before. My mom is huge in serving. She's probably the person that I look up to the most for serving.

She's always looking for ways and I went on my mission and I remember trying to be like her and trying to put everything aside to do what she would have me do. Like we had a hurricane. When I was there and it was lots and lots of service and it was so much [00:15:00] fun.

It's really hot in Houston and there was a hurricane and our power wasn't on. So when we go home, it wasn't like it was going to be like a cool place to sit and stuff. And so sometimes we would be like, Oh, I think I'd rather be teaching someone right now but instead we had the opportunity to rake leaves.

We have, helped these people and it was really cool. But I remember thinking about my mom and thinking that my mom would give up anything to be able to help these people here. And so that was something that helped me a lot.

Yeah, that is very cool. I really appreciate that. You mentioned there was a hurricane that came through Houston while you were there. Talk to us a little bit about. That and how that relates, how you can relate to that, to maybe getting through the storms of life. Talk to me about that experience.

. Well, the hurricane had affected us like a little bit differently than other places that hit us more with like wind and just lots of rain. And it. was pretty strong when I've never seen anything like that actually before but it was really, crazy. And so [00:16:00] lots of trees were down and lots of things had happened and we had to go help all these people.

And we saw them being like these people that were teaching or these people, these family members that we grew close to in these wards were devastated. Either their tree had fallen on their house and something had happened. Nothing was really working and I was thinking about it a lot actually of how this relates to the storms that we go through we each go through something really hard and it can hurt us and it can make us really sad And it can take us down a little bit but if we Seek for help like the people sought for the missionaries if we seek their help through the Book of Mormon Praying, reading our scriptures going to church.

I know that can give us the aid that we would need in our life, because sometimes life can get dark, and it can get stormy. And I know that, and I've been through those [00:17:00] things, especially with my self image and who Christ wants me to be. But I know that I love myself more. I know that I can get through the days more if I'm doing the things that He would have me do.

So that's how I would see it relate.

You mentioned that you grew a love for the Book of Mormon. Was there a particular verse or passage that seemed to come back as a theme throughout your mission that you would just turn to over and over or relate to somebody else over and if so, what was it?

Moroni chapter 9 verse 6 It's like my most favorite verse that was also another chastisement kind of a thing. I feel like I learned to love diligence on my mission. I feel like before I was so lazy, but diligence became huge for me. And I love diligence and obedience.

And I went through so many experiences where I had the opportunity to choose if I wanted to be diligent and obedient. And this verse, [00:18:00] after I went through a pretty hard time, I remember reading it to my mission president and I was like, this is who I want to be and I'll read it actually, because it's just really cool.

, this is Moroni, he's talking to his son, but he says, and now my beloved son, notwithstanding their hardness, let us labor diligently. For if we should cease to labor, we should be brought under condemnation. For we have a labor to perform, whilst in this tabernacle of clay, that we may conquer the enemy of all righteousness and rest our souls in the kingdom of God.

But I love this verse because I love that he is talking to his son and he says notwithstanding the hardness, let us labor diligently. People can be hard. They would slam their, doors in our faces. They would not want to listen to us. They would mock us. But we should work hard and we should labor and we should be diligent and we can rest later.

We can, rest when we get with God, but [00:19:00] Let's just keep going now. And I love that. Don't stop.

Don't stop. Love that. I see that as a potential theme here. So as you take that and don't stop, you said there were several experiences where you had the choice on your mission.

Am I going to be diligent here? Or am I going to. Kick back and relax. Maybe share a time where you really wanted to kick back and relax. And maybe you did. Say, you know what, today not today, And then you, learned something from that experience.

Yeah. I was with a companion for three transfers.

She's one of my best friends. Oh my gosh, I love her to death. You get to really know them. We became like sisters so close you become comfortable and you begin to start to learn a lot about each other and this goes into how like a lot on [00:20:00] Sundays, , we loved being at home, taking a Sunday nap, being with our family, and chilling. And so, every Sunday, not every Sunday, but it seemed like it, we would, it would be 7pm, we saw two more hours to go, and , we'd get to our destination to go knock some doors, and find people to teach. And we would sit there and we would be like, huh.

Right now, we would be laying on the couch, watching a Jesus movie, and really just chilling. And, we would do anything to be there. I remember saying that. Oh, I would do anything to do that right now. I was getting close to the end of my mission, so I had been out for a while.

And I remember sitting in our truck for It seemed like forever. It wasn't that long, but it seemed like forever. And I was like, we have to get out. There are people that need us. We have to work. There are people that haven't had the opportunity to learn about the gospel of Jesus Christ yet. And I remember we got out of our truck one time and we went and we knocked [00:21:00] doors and it was literally the last door that we had of the night.

And it was a really amazing person, . They wanted to talk, but they didn't want to learn more. But I know that was why we got out was to give them the opportunity and to help them learn a little bit more about what we know.

I battle that big time myself, oh, it's easier to lay on the couch and just kick back and relax, and that's not a bad thing. But when my feet should be doing something else and somewhere else, I need to be where my feet should be, right?

Exactly.

Talk to me about your perception of that and what that means to you.

I think being where my feet are is we're being where Jesus Christ's feet are.

So as a missionary, you are walking in Jesus Christ's footsteps. Like you're trying to, emulate him. You're trying to be like him, which means you're doing things that he would do. And, I think it's also be where your heart is, too, because really you want to be out there, and you want [00:22:00] to go serve, and sometimes it gets a little bit hard, but you know where you should be, and you know where Jesus Christ wants you to be, you know where He would be, and so I think that is where I take be where your feet are, because as a missionary, you just want to be just like Jesus Christ, you want to walk in the ways He would.

I love the way you related that. No, let's be where Jesus' feet are. Where he would be right now. If he were, in this place , that's good. All right, so. Hailey, as you prepared for your mission, what made you decide, first of all, to go on a mission? Is that something you always said, I'm going to do this, or did you have a, an awakening?

It was like, okay, you're going.

No, I did not always want to serve a mission. Actually, I had two older siblings that served a mission out of the three older siblings that I have. And they, both actually went to Brazil and I remember thinking, I don't [00:23:00] want to go on a mission. They already did it. I don't want to go to Brazil.

I want to be different just like the rebellious, and I remember going to the temple one time with my family we went there to do baptisms for the dead and , we got to do really close family names and it was the coolest thing ever. And I remember feeling a spirit so strong , I just remember heavenly father answering my prayer and saying, You need to go on a mission.

You need to help these amazing people learn about the gospel of Jesus Christ. This is how you're happy. You want to go help other people be happy. And so I did. I put in my papers. I fought all my fears. I'm not the most brave person. But I, and then I got my call to Houston, Texas and it all answered why I did what I did.

You mentioned that you fought all your fears. You're not the most brave person. How did the Lord [00:24:00] strengthen you to get through those fears to be courageous enough to do scary things, hard things while you're on your mission?

Oh, yeah. He really helped me a lot. I'm not the most brave person.

I am afraid of storms. I'm afraid of Walking on the streets at night in the dark, going up to strangers doors that you met through online, not the most brave person, but we did that every single day and I don't want to say I never was afraid, but there was something different as I was out there.

I know that there were angels protecting us like all the time, especially when I was in the city, I felt it so much because we ran into some pretty. Scary experiences that I would have been so uncomfortable with while I was out. But I know that like my grandpas and my, just like my family members that have passed away were with us protecting us.

And that's something that Jesus Christ blessed me with every single day. I just remember praying at my knees at night [00:25:00] and, Heavenly Father being like, remember how this happened today? And I would be like, Oh yeah, that did happen today. You helped me in that. And so I completely changed my view from Hailey to Sister Ballar.

I think in that of being like. This is why I'm here and I don't need to be afraid because Jesus Christ has my back Don't stop right? Don't stop.

How do you carry that forward now that you aren't wearing the Mitch mission the mission name tag and you're no longer Quote unquote sister Bollar.

You're now Hailey Bollar. How do you carry that? Knowledge that Jesus has your back forward.

It's actually been one of my struggles as I've gotten home trying to keep Sister Bollar, a part of Hailey Bollar. I like. That she's not a different person. She's who I am. She's who I've grown to be. And that's, me.

But as I've come home [00:26:00] and I, all of a sudden I'm around people again I'm about to go back to school and I'm about to have these experiences where people aren't members of the church and I get to talk with them. I've started to go back into my shell from before. And I notice it.

I'll go into big groups of people and I'll become quiet and I will sit there and I'll be like this is not what I learned on my mission. This is not who I've become. I want to be who Jesus Christ wants me to be and So I'll sit there and I'll think for a second But then I'll be able to use that and I'll be able to remember who I really am and who he wants me to be So I have this battle with myself and I'm still trying to figure it out But I think as I get on my comfort zone and I know What I've become, I think that will, so I'm learning.

Yeah. You said you're going to school. Where are you going to school and what are you going to be learning?

I'm gonna go to Snow College in Utah to start off and get my [00:27:00] associates my associates for radiology technician. And then I'll probably transfer to Weber's online program for that.

What made you decide that's something that you want to do? Is that something that's a new thing to you that you've developed or is that something you've always wanted to do?

I actually developed it on my mission. I love talking to people. I think I've already said that like a bajillion times.

But talking to people every single day was probably my most favorite part of my mission. Meeting new people every single day is something that I've struggled with coming home. It's because I don't meet new people every single day. And so I remember being on my mission and I was like, how can I do this?

In a job, how can I talk with lots of people? And I've always loved the medical field and there was this lady that was talking with my dad and she mentioned her, job and how she gets to meet new people every day from young to old, from just like everything.

And for some reason that just sparked in my, brain that would be a really cool job opportunity [00:28:00] and I could, grow up and be a mom too and I can still live this both world thing so, I really like that idea.

That's so cool, and that's one reason why I do this that I do with having these types of conversations with people from all over the world, is that connection that happens.

You and I, we Never met and yet we have these meaningful conversations where we're really getting into each other's souls here and diving deep. And it's such a powerful thing for me because naturally , when I don't have this microphone right here.

I disappear. I'm just not there. But for whatever reason, when I sit down with a microphone and with somebody doors open somehow that connection happens. , this is becoming more about me here , but forgive me for just a minute. One of my New Year's goals this year is to have at least one meaningful conversation like this with somebody per week without it being recorded.

It's just something that I'm going [00:29:00] and sitting down with , a new person that I really don't know. So anyways, as I share that with you, , is there anything that comes to your mind that you're like, okay, that's something that I can work on?

That's a really good question. I love that idea. . I've actually recently had the opportunity to go with the missionaries on some lessons, which has been the highlight of my week and so exciting. But I go with them and I'm not the missionary teaching anymore, which is really hard.

I'm sitting there and waiting for my input to be put in and the companionship, but it's not as much. And I have learned through this is that I want to be a missionary when I go back to school so that I can have these opportunities as much as possible, . I you don't have the microphone, I won't have the name tag, but , I can still be brave and I can still take that in as an opportunity of, just because I'm not wearing the name tag doesn't mean I'm not a missionary, [00:30:00] and I'm not a disciple of Jesus Christ.

So that's something that I want to do is just be brave with that.

I love that. Still be brave. Hailey as we talk here, some of the things that we've talked about are you mentioned your mission president when you got there. He said, hey, I want you to read through the Book of Mormon, highlight everything under the doctrine of Christ, everything about Jesus Christ.

What types of other impacts did your mission president and mission leaders have on you that you are carrying it forward? I

had two mission presidents and my, first one, I grew a really strong connection with him through an experience that I had. I remember struggling with a companionship, but like I was struggling with this sister in the area

I was trained for two transfers and then they asked me to train for two transfers. And so I just did everything the way that my trainer did. And so , [00:31:00] we worked hard and that's all I knew and, I wanted to keep that. And then I went to a different place where it wasn't it was, different.

And I remember I struggled with myself the most. I was getting on my knees and I remember my prayers were shorter because I felt embarrassed to talk to heavenly father because I felt like I wasn't working as hard or I felt like the people around me were struggling to be obedient. So that means that I was too, or I just was really struggling with myself and I just was embarrassed to come to heavenly father.

And finally, I remember talking to my sister training leaders and I told them how I felt and they knew cause they could tell with my, smile and my demeanor, everything was just changing and they knew I was really struggling and my family saw it. Finally today. Ask me to talk with my [00:32:00] mission president.

They just said, tell him how you feel. So I remember writing him my, weekly emails to tell him how I'm doing. And he would check in on me, but then I finally got the chance to have my interview with him in person. And he just showed me so much love.

And he, just talked to me, and I feel like, how a Heavenly Father would talk to me. He knew that I was going through a hard time. And he just read scriptures with me, and I, cried to him about the way that I felt, and how I felt like I couldn't really talk to Heavenly Father because I felt guilty.

And he just told me that I was forgiven, and that I didn't need to be so hard on myself. And I grew such a strong connection with him, and he had such an impact on my life of repentance. I've learned truly what it is and what brings happiness into my life.

Okay. So what is repentance and how does it bring happiness into your life?

I feel like repentance is, we teach people that it's like turning to Jesus Christ and turning away from the [00:33:00] things that aren't right. I learned that a lot through this experience is turning away from these thoughts that I had about myself for one and turning away from, if we weren't working as hard, well then let's work harder and let's try to be better.

And so I tried to turn away from those things. And, I learned that as you are trying your absolute best, as you're putting in your best effort That is repentance and Heavenly Father can see that and . You're so much happier when you're being obedient and when you're repenting and using the Atonement of Jesus Christ because Jesus Christ suffered for you so that you can have the opportunity to be happy.

Because imagine if we didn't have that opportunity, we would all be so sad, but we have this opportunity because of Him and we want to use it as much as possible. And so that's something that I learned through that.

Is that a new perspective you had you gained on repentance, or is that something you understood your whole life before your mission?[00:34:00]

Yeah, that is something that I mostly really understood on my mission. I knew that Repentance was asking for forgiveness, and I knew that Jesus Christ died so that we can repent But I didn't fully understand it in my life I felt it didn't really come to know how it would make me feel through repentance and reading in the scriptures and seeing their experiences of repentance and then seeing mine Was a game changer for me.

It was really, cool to be able to experience it.

. Before we start wrapping up, is there anything else that's come onto your heart and into your mind that you feel like you need to share at this point before I ask a few wrap up questions?

. I think if returned missionaries listen to this or future missionaries, I think one thing that I've been struggling with recently is feeling that constant happiness.

You have this constant happiness when you're a missionary, even if you're going through a hard time, you're really [00:35:00] sad, there's like this purpose that you have. And so you're happy. It's just so different. And then you come home and you have so many different focuses.

And so you're trying to find that all day happiness. And so you read scriptures a little bit longer and you're trying to have that all the same feelings that you had before, but it's going to be different. And. That's okay. Jesus Christ knows that it's going to be different, but I just want them to know that as you keep your focus on our savior, if you, as you put him first, you can find that happiness and you can feel that spirit throughout the day.

It might not be as BAM, but it will be really cool. So that's something that's been on my

mind. Thank you for sharing that Hailey. All right. So. As we start to wrap up, this project, as is called Can You Feel So Now and it's based on Alma chapter 5 verse 26. And this verse reads, And now behold, I say unto you, if you have experienced a change of heart, and if you have felt to sing the song of redeeming love, I would ask, can you feel so now?

So Hailey, talk to me [00:36:00] about the change of heart you have experienced.

I've experienced a huge change of heart. My, my life is forever changed because I served the Lord. And I'm a completely different person than what I was when I left. And the spirit is a part of my life every single day. And I'm so grateful for that gift the heavenly father has given me.

But I, changed completely as a person and I'm so grateful for every opportunity that I've had.

Yeah. All right. Next phrase. And if you have felt to sing the song of redeeming love, what does that look like to you in your life? What does that mean to sing the song of redeeming love?

I think just to go out and tell everyone that, I can about Jesus Christ's love for them and to tell them how much he loves them, even if they don't want to. Listen, or go more into depth, I think, just trying to mention in every conversation that I have about Jesus Christ and about his love for everyone.

Yeah, thank you. Now, the last phrase in this verse anyways, is, can you [00:37:00] feel so now? So what I want to do, Hailey, is jump in this proverbial time machine that we go in. Let's jump ahead ten years into the future. And Hailey, at that point, you find yourself Your prayers being shorter because you feel unworthy to come before the Lord.

You look in the mirror and you don't see the Hailey that we talked about here with that light and that smile and you're like, what is going on? I'm not feeling so now. So what I want you, to invite you to do Is today Hailey, talk to 10 year from now Hailey and tell her, what makes you have that light in your eyes and that smile on your face today that she can apply in her life then.

Well, first of all, I would say don't give up. It's true. It brings you true happiness. You've seen it. You felt it. It just reminds me of the talk that Elder Holland gave about the apostles after Jesus Christ died, they went back out and they did the same exact thing that they did before they met Jesus Christ.[00:38:00]

They went back to fishing and that just reminds me of that as he says. Do you love me? And I think , I would ask myself the same thing. Do you love him? Because if you love him you know what you need to do. I think I would need a little bit of chastisement by my past self.

Thank you for sharing that. And thank you for talking to yourself in the future. Hailey, as life is not. This always happy upward trend that happens in life. Now, hopefully in these peaks and valleys, we are on a, trend that eventually goes upward in that direction. But these words that you have for yourself can be powerful reminders for yourself and for anybody else out there.

That's not feeling it now. And coming back to that, as we close out, are you willing to bear testimony? Of whatever principle that is weighing on you right now .

We talked a lot about my self worth and everyone else's self worth. And I think that's something that kind of has stuck with me since [00:39:00] we talked about it.

But I just know the heavenly father loves all of his children and we all mean. So much to him. We are his most prized possessions and I think I know that him and Jesus Christ would do anything for us. And I know that they gave us so much in this life to, to look up to them for. And I'm, so grateful for that.

And I know that the gospel of Jesus Christ brings true happiness and joy. I've seen it in my life because Heavenly Father loves me.

Awesome. Thank you so much, Hailey. This has been a really meaningful conversation for me. I hope it's been meaningful for you also.

Yes, it has so much.