Can You Feel So Now, Becca Wright

[00:00:00] Welcome to the Can you Feel So now podcast. I'm Justin Barton and I am super excited to be sitting here with Becca Wright, who is a fairly recently returned missionary of the Church of Jesus Christof Latter Day Saints, and I'm excited to get to know a little bit more about her mission

So Becca, why don't you take just a minute, introduce yourself, tell us a little bit about your family, where you're from and some of the hobbies you have in your life.

Alright, like you said I'm Becca Wright. I just got home from my mission about a month and a half ago.

I served in Salta Argentina, speaking Spanish. I live in Washington now, but I'm originally from California. I lived there almost my entire life. I went to school for about a year before my mission went to BYU. And now I'm just working until I go back to school.

I love skiing. I'm actually gonna go skiing tomorrow, so I'm looking forward to that. And I love music. I played a couple instruments in high school and I've played piano for almost my entire life. So that's always been my favorite [00:01:00] thing to do is just sit down and play some piano

definitely gotten back into reading as well. I love reading.

I'm excited for you to get to go skiing tomorrow

i'm so excited.

Good. So tell me, what dates were you there in Argentina?

So I started my mission on August 21st, 2023. I got to Argentina October 5th, 2023, and I left February 19th, 2025.

So, Becca, you talked about music a, you love music.

Tell me why you love music and how that has helped you throughout your life, and maybe particularly on your mission.

Yeah. I think music for me has always just been a way to relieve my stress. I noticed it, especially during the pandemic. I was home a lot. For part of my junior year. I was home three days of the week and in person two days, so it was lots of time on my computer just doing homework, and it was terrible.

But I think that's really when I fell in love [00:02:00] with playing the piano. I'd just sit down and I'd lose track of time and that would just help me relieve that stress but I think just my whole life is just music has just made me feel happy.

And lots of times it's the way that I can feel the spirit depending on the song. Music is something you have to be careful with as well. But it's really helped me feel the spirit and I think on the mission music gave me that ability to be by yourself.

And if I couldn't physically do that, music gave me that ability to just be alone with I felt with the Lord and feel the spirit and it was definitely special.

. Did you have the opportunity to be like the ward or branch pianist while you were there in Argentina on your mission, and if so, how did that help you?

Decompress also.

I served in lots of little branches and lots of people don't play the piano there, so I think most of my mission I ended up playing almost every single Sunday, that was a really cool experience for me. I really saw how the Lord helped me many [00:03:00] times.

I would just say a quick little prayer, just please help me to be able to play this hymn. All right. It doesn't need to be perfect, but I just need some help. And I saw how he really helped me with that. So I think that just gave me the confidence and. In a way that calms me down too, to understand that the Lord was there in the work and going out in the streets and talking to everyone.

But he is also there helping me with little challenges or little things that I had never played before. That could freak me out a little bit. But I could see that he was there helping me and that would help me, de-stress a little bit and be able to calm down.

Can you think of a specific time when that happened that you really felt that the Lord was basically playing the piano for you?

I think there were just so many times that. I was like I can't do this anymore. I was like, I don't even know what I'm doing.

Whether it was with the piano, whether it was with work, I don't know what I'm doing and you need to take. The wheel, you need to be in charge. 'cause I can't [00:04:00] do this and I can't think of a specific time at church, but I know there are many times he saved me from making a terrible mistake.

I'd realize whoa, he really guided my fingers there. Or I'd lose track of where I was on the page and he'd just. Guide my hands. And those were really cool experiences. That can really make a difference in those Sunday meetings and helping to bring the spirit.

Yeah. Now let's take that experience out into the streets where you were, out preaching, teaching, finding making friends, whatever. Where did the Lord pick you up when you thought, I can't do this. This is beyond me.

Yeah. I thought of two different experiences. One of 'em I had been out, I think just about seven months when I trained for my first time. And I had been in that area for two transfers already, so about three months. But it's pretty different. Training someone and being in charge and helping someone else, especially when I felt like I still didn't know anything and didn't have that [00:05:00] much experience.

I felt like that was the most difficult area I had been in. And I was having a really hard time just. Finding people who are really interested in listening to us and wanting to change their lives and just come to know Jesus Christ. I can think of a specific night. I think it's three or four weeks into that transfer.

So I've been training for almost a month and just felt more and more lost as each day went on and I thought I'd get more and more comfortable, but I just felt more and more guilty for. Oh, I'm not doing enough for my companion. I'm not helping her learn enough. I'm not helping her find the joy that we can find in the work.

And I just remember one night just asking the Lord, like, why? Like, why is this so hard? Why can't we find these people? I wasn't upset at him, but I was just like, I don't understand. I felt like I received a couple small answers that I was like, okay, like I understand, but I didn't feel like I received the answer.

But the next [00:06:00] morning I got up, exercised, got ready for the day, we planned, and right after planning, I had my hour of personal study and. I started with the Book of Mormon and I think one of the very first verses I read was an alma

It is 1711. But it does say, and the Lord said unto them, also, go forth among the Lamanites thy brethren and establish my word. Yet you shall be patient in long suffering and afflictions that you may show forth good examples unto them in me, and I'll make an instrument of d in my hands unto the salvation of many souls.

It was just so special for me to just wow, the Lord knows this is exactly what I needed today. . I just was like, wow, I just felt so much peace and I just knew that the Lord was so aware of me and our situation in that moment. The work, honestly, after that, never really picked up and we didn't end up baptizing [00:07:00] like 10 people after that.

And I ended up being transferred about two or three weeks later. But I just, I felt okay after that. And I just knew the Lord had everything in control. And I was like, I'm all right. I don't need to worry anymore. And I think that really was a turning point for me in the mission. I was able to help more people come to know the gospel and come to know more about Jesus Christ. And it was just so amazing.

So a lot of the things that you've talked about today lean in towards, trusting in God, being patient, maybe resilient. Talk to me where that comes from in your life.

Where do you think you picked that up and are trying to go with that?

Yeah. I think that's something I definitely developed in the mission. My nickname before my mission was worry wart in my Family because I was constantly worrying about things that hadn't happened, probably weren't going to happen, or even if they did happen or things I did not need to be worrying about.

[00:08:00] And I think. I knew, I believed in Jesus Christ. I know I believed he was my savior, but I don't think I ever really knew him before. I think he was just like , he's the savior of everybody. But I, it was never a personal thing. And I think that trust developed as I came to know who he was for me personally, and, that just came through those experiences where I was like, he's really aware of me. He's right here. Like those days, those moments where I was like, I can't do this anymore. I can't keep putting one foot in front of the other, and he would just give me a little bit extra. A little bit of extra strength or just little things like that.

And I was like, wow, I really can trust him and I can rely on him. And I think as that trust developed, that resilience came, that resilience to just you know what? I don't need to worry anymore. The Lord's already shown me countless times that he's there. He's there and

he is not gonna let me fall flat on my face he's not gonna let me give up. He's gonna be there to lift [00:09:00] me again and , he's gonna carry me if I'm too weak. And I think that resilience just built as my trust in him built.

Yeah. Beautiful. I love that. So you said your nickname before your mission was worry wart because you worried about everything, whether it was gonna happen or not.

How do you compare yourself now? Do you still have those types of fears for the future? Anxiety of the future, fear of the past? Or is that something that you are now able to, because you practiced it, able to at least maybe talk yourself off the ledge at that point? I.

I, I've noticed it comes back a little bit every now and then.

I know, you change so much in the mission, but you're not gonna be 100% a completely different person. And especially going home and then being thrown back into normal life and everything, those worries will come back and we're not immune to those, but, I have definitely seen that change and you know what?

Like I don't need to worry about this. I shouldn't, and I can't worry about this 'cause [00:10:00] I can't control it right now. And I have just seen just such a growth in being able to trust in God's plan. Because before I think there, if this happens, there's no way I'm gonna be okay with that. Or if this doesn't happen, I don't know how I'm gonna be able to.

I know I'll be okay because you'll take care of me.

Yeah. So Becca, what is a. One of the attributes of Christ that you read about him.

Preach my gospel. That you think developed the most while you were serving on your mission. Maybe it was a real weak point and it became a strength as you came through your mission.

Yeah. This sounds ridiculous, but I think faith, which I think is the very first attribute of Jesus Christ is faith.

And I love that because it's the building point, it's the foundation. And like I mentioned earlier, I thought I have such a strong testimony. I trust Jesus and God so [00:11:00] much. I'm gonna be great. I'm gonna do great. And I just got humbled so quickly and got shown so quickly that I.

Yes, I believed in them, but I had so much more to learn. And I think that faith just developed and grew so much during the mission. And I think for the first about third I lived in fear of oh, like I don't wanna be sent to this area. I'm gonna get robbed there.

Or I don't want this to happen because. But it began to develop into the, that thy will be done. Oh Lord, not mine. Or I'll go where you want me to go. And I think my, my faith grew so much, so, so much in the mission.

You mentioned that, I thought I had a testimony of these things before my mission, but I was humbled. Is there a difference in your mind and in your experience between testimony and conversion and [00:12:00] what is that difference? What does that process look like?

Yeah, I think. I think there is a slight difference.

I think for me personally, my testimony was my beliefs, things I believed, but I think conversion came as I came to know those things as I came to apply those things in my life and. Sought to grow my knowledge of those things. So I believed in Jesus Christ. I believed in God's plan.

I believed I was the daughter of God, but on my mission, I came to know Jesus Christ, and I came to know and understand God's plan for me personally. And I came to know that I was a loved loved daughter of God. And I think for me, that's where that slight distinction comes. You need both of them, but conversion is just on such a deeper level

it has such deep roots and it's so much harder to shake that conversion.

How do you know that you are a loved loved daughter of God? Did you have an experience where it's oh yeah, I am.

Yeah. That's been [00:13:00] definitely a journey for me. I've always struggled just a little bit with my self worth, my whole life, and it's more of things that I.

Think about myself, not, it doesn't come from a lack of love from anyone, or unkind words from anyone. It's just an internal thing that I fought with for a long time. During my mission, I learned a lot about the atonement and I learned that the atonement isn't just for sins.

The atonement of Jesus Christ is used when we don't feel so great physically, spiritually, mentally. The atonement is for when we're sad when we want to feel and be better, but we feel like we can't or that's just unreachable I came to know and understand the atonement a lot more, and I have a lot, a long ways to go.

I'm really trying to deepen my understanding of that recently. I think coming to know and understand that helped me to understand the love that my heavenly [00:14:00] father in Jesus Christ have for me.

Thanks for sharing that, Becca. As you look back, what other maybe verses of scripture or themes seem to repeat themselves throughout your mission that helped you In either hard times or in high times.

Yeah, I immediately thought of John 14, 26 and 27. The mission's a very hectic time and that's really good. It's good to be busy, but also it can be a little difficult. . And I just had multiple waves of feeling really at peace and feeling really good, and then feeling really overwhelmed and really striving to find that peace, but feeling like I couldn't find it, couldn't settle my thoughts, couldn't settle my feelings, and, I loved John 1426, and especially verse 27, but they say, but the comforter, which is the Holy Ghost, whom the father will send him my name. He shall teach you all [00:15:00] things and bring all things to your remembrance . Whatsoever I've said unto you. Peace I leave with you. My peace I give unto you. Not as a world giveth give I unto you.

Let not your heart be trouble neither. Let it be afraid. And I just love that the Lord tells us we don't need to be troubled and that he gives us a different kind of peace that we can't find anywhere else in the world. And that peace comes from Him and from the spirit.

Do you have an example in your life of someone who.

Kinda lives that let not your heart be troubled, neither. Let it be afraid, even in hard times that you can look to and go. And that's somebody that I will try to emulate.

I have a family member that her entire life, ever since she was born, has just been.

Full of trials. She's born with a disease and she has tumors that she has to control by taking medication a lot or getting lots of tests. So that [00:16:00] alone brings lots of turbulence to her life. Lots of health scares surgeries, just lots of things she's also had some other familial issues.

But every time I see her, she just has a smile on her face. And I know maybe inside she, she's scared, but just the kind of, I don't know, spirit, she radiates. It's just a spirit of peace and a spirit of love. And I think about her all the time when I'm like, man, like my life is so crazy. I don't know what I'm doing.

And I just think of her, I'm like. Oh my goodness. Like she is just such a wonderful example of just that peace and yeah she's awesome.

Sounds like somebody that's really cool to have around. And just one go man. Thanks for lifting me up. And two, going, I'm blessed in my own life, right?

Yeah.

Let's talk a little bit about comparison where is comparison against others? How does that, [00:17:00] how can that cause negative side effects, and how can those that cause positive side effects? Have you experienced negative comparison with people where you just beat yourself up because I'm just not good enough

absolutely. I think that was the story of my life for a long time, especially in high school. I just really struggled with feeling like I wasn't living up to people's expectations or doing everything I was supposed to or wasn't as good as my brother at this, or my sister at this, or my cousin or my friend, or whatever.

And there's. A chapter in Preach My Gospel that talks about learning the language, and it's pretty short, but one of the main things it says is to not compare yourself to other people.

And that goes outside of learning a language that goes with anything you do, whether in missionary work, whether it's in your work, whether it's in your family, callings in the church, whatever it may be. We shouldn't compare ourselves because. There. There's two things. It [00:18:00] says this in preach my gospel. Two things can happen.

You either become prideful 'cause you're like, oh, I'm doing so great. I'm way better at this than that person. Or you become depressed, you become discouraged. I will never live up to that. And I. I know for, most of my life and especially the mission, it was very easy to fall into the oh my gosh, that is such a good missionary.

They're baptizing so many people and their numbers are so good. But that's not what missionary work is. Missionary work isn't about numbers, it's about people. And I began to change my perspective on comparison and decided. To look at it more as, okay, there are some good ways to compare yourself. I tried to compare myself to myself, to my past self and see if I really was growing and becoming more like Jesus Christ.

And yes, I'd have days where I'd falter or I do a [00:19:00] lot worse than other days, but I just tried to compare myself more to myself. And usually you're gonna see growth. You'll usually see growth. But then , if I did compare myself to other people as in an edifying sort of way oh, this person is such a wonderful example of Jesus Christ to me.

And I really admire them for that. And I want to learn and be more loving like they are because it's. A way to become a better person, but it's without that negative self-talk, without that negative, oh, well, they're so awesome. I'm never gonna be able to get there you just have to change the way you talk to yourself. But I think I just used the examples of others, positive examples to be able to help me to ultimately become a better person.

I love that and that upward comparison of, man, that person is so loving, what can I do to become more loving like they are, rather than, Ugh, I'll never get there.

And I love [00:20:00] that 'cause, well, comparison is the thief of joy. It just takes away any joy that you could have. . Talk to me about Joy. What role does Joy play in your life today, and how has that evolved over the last while?

Yeah. I love the word joy. I love it. Because it's so much deeper than happiness.

Happiness is very, I don't know, superficial. It's awesome, but it's so fleeting, I feel like. But joy is something that lasts, something that can last even in difficult times. I think it's taken me a long time to understand what true joy really does feel like. And I think my last transfer of my mission, I would tell my companion very frequently you know what?

Let's just focus on joy. The first two weeks of that last transfer were some of the most difficult.

And we were just getting so in our heads about the work and no one's [00:21:00] progressing or whatever, I didn't want to be focusing on negative things. And I just said to her like, you know what? Let's just focus on having joy.

Let's just have joy. Let's have fun. Let's enjoy this. And the work became so awesome and, I think she and I worked more in unison and there was so much more love, we loved each other a lot, but there was just so much more love there. And I think joy just can really affect other things.

And it's very different now being home and, I. I'm not going out teaching people about Jesus Christ 24 7. And there's a lot of other worldly distractions that can get in the way. I started working about two or three weeks ago. So going through those adjustment periods has at times, shaken that joy a little bit in my life.

I've found it as I've tried to put Jesus Christ as the [00:22:00] center of my life because he is joy. I loved what Elder Kieran said. I think it was an October's conference about, this is the church of Jesus Christ. Jesus Christ is joy. So this is the church of joy. And so I just try to keep Jesus Christ as the focus of what I do and the focus of my life.

Beautiful. I love that. This is the Church of Joy that talked by Elder Kieran is a good one. And because Jesus Christ is joy, this is the church of joy. And I have to try and remember that. 'cause sometimes it feels like a slog of, I'm going to church and I'm doing my thing and what's the point?

So what, when you ever feel that way, I'm just checking the boxes here. How do you try and get back into that? Mindset of joy. Even if joy isn't happiness, joy is deeper than that. How do you get in, stay in that mindset?

I think something I do is just remembering those moments where I really did just feel that wow, I'm just so grateful to be a member of the Church of Jesus [00:23:00] Christ, of Latter Day Saints are.

Wow. Like I just. Feel the spirit so strongly right now because it is so easy to go through the motions. 'cause this is, a part of our lives. At least for me, it's, I was born in the church, so I've been gonna church for almost 21 years now. But, so it's very easy that it just becomes something like, oh yep, I go to church, I go to activities, or I do this for my calling and go to these meetings.

I think something I strive to do is constantly looking for ways to either better myself or grow my connection more importantly with the Lord. I am going back to BYU in the fall and had to renew my ecclesiastical endorsement. And I think one of the questions says something about do you strive to deepen your understanding of the atonement of Jesus Christ? And I was like, that's like a very interesting way to phrase that, strive to deepen.

And I was like. Wow. I realized I was totally just going through the [00:24:00] motions of scripture, study, church, everything. And so as of about two or three weeks ago, I've really been trying to put that focus more in Jesus Christ. Again, putting that meaning into the things I'm doing, meaning into my study, meaning into church.

Like why do I go to church? Why do I enjoy going there? Why do I choose to keep going? And I think just remembering those little moments, those little rays of sunshine. And it doesn't have to be some magical experience every time.

Oh, I didn't feel the spirit super strongly. Is there something wrong? That's just how it is sometimes, but we can just remember those other special moments.

I agree it if every moment was that special moment, there would be no special moments, right?

You mentioned that, couple, the last two or three weeks you've been reiv back into deepening your understanding of the atonement of Jesus Christ. [00:25:00] Now you've only been home from your mission like two months, and already you're like.

Kinda laying off of that and trying to dive back into it. Talk to me about how quick and easy it is to get complacent and say, you know what, I'm good with that great spiritual experience I had the last 18 months without even recognizing it.

Yeah, that was, I think, one of the hardest. Truths that I had to come to terms with when I got home.

'cause a couple days before going home I'm like, oh, I'm never doing this again. I'm never watching a single video on my phone. I'm not whatever. Like I'm not doing these things and I'm gonna be so good about studying an hour every day. One of the first days getting home, I was like.

I was like, I know this is good for me, but I don't exactly want to sit here for an hour and study it. Literally the day I got home I was studying and I was like, there are so many other things I'd prefer to be doing right now. And it was really hard for me to [00:26:00] adjust to that because I was like, is there something wrong with me?

I just got home from like the most spiritual experience. For 18 months. I've been studying every single day for 18 months and I came home and it was so hard and, but I just started to realize, it's so different when we're home and there's so many other things going on.

And part of it, I think in the mission, my personal study was my only time for myself and I got home and just not every day, all day was time for myself and. It can be so easy to just oh, okay, well I'll just study a little bit less. Or oh, i'll just study tomorrow.

And a couple weeks had family come and I was so bad at studying while they were there, but I think it is. It's just important to be patient with ourselves. Remember that we're humans. We're not gonna be perfect. The Lord never expected us to be perfect.

He's perfect and he was never hard on himself or never [00:27:00] critical of himself. I was like, wow, that is so true. And so I just try to remember that the Lord is perfect. I'm not perfect, but he was never hard on himself and he has enough grace for me to help me and just.

As soon as I recognized that I faltered, just showing that I really am trying by going back in full force to study or if it's been a while, work up to it gradually. But I just try to remember that, you know what, I'm not perfect, but Jesus Christ is patient enough for me.

Do you believe that he's patient enough even for you?

Yes. I know he has enough patience and grace for me.

That's something that I've struggled with for a lot of my life is yeah, God, the savior their love is perfect and enough for everybody else, but I'm the one that it's not good enough for I his atonement doesn't cover me 'cause I'm just.

Too imperfect for that. Do you identify with that [00:28:00] thought and that

mindset? Oh yeah. I've definitely gone through that many times.

But . And I just wanna reiterate too, you, Becca, that when you just said, yeah, he's patient enough, even for me, he is, I want you to remember that because you're not the exception.

I'm not the exception. And, that's just something that I have to remember in my own life and I feel to reiterate that to you. All right. So before I get into these closing up questions, Becca, is there anything else on your heart, any other experiences that you're like, I need to share about this in this recording so that I can remember it and other people can hear it?

I think one other mission experience that I was thinking of was, . I learned a lot about fasting.

But I remember we were fasting one Sunday I was a sister training leader at that time, so, we're expected to be a little bit more of an example for the other missionaries. And my companion [00:29:00] and I were struggling so much just for four or five weeks. Just we would find new people to teach and teach 'em and.

We did weekly planning every Sunday. So that's when we decide who we're gonna keep teaching, and there was just like four or five weeks straight of, we'd find people like Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday, and by. Friday, Saturday, Sunday. We already stopped teaching them and it was so hard to just cycle through those people.

That's a terrible way of putting it. But just, we just felt oh my gosh, no one wants to listen to us. What are we doing? What are we going to do? And I remember it was fast Sunday. I remember it was my birthday. We were fasting for just for someone, but especially for men who could hold the priesthood.

And I also told my companion, we had about two weeks left on the transfer. I said, we are going to baptize someone before. This transfer ends. 'cause I don't know if we're gonna be together still. And we didn't end up being together still, but I said, we're gonna do it. I don't know how, but the Lord will help us.

And we both had enough faith for that. [00:30:00] And I remember that Sunday just sitting there and watching one of our friends walk in. About two minutes later, two other men walked in that we had never even seen, but a man in a different ward brought them in and said, Hey, these are my friends.

They live , in your area boundary, and. They've come to church once before and they want to learn more. And we were like, oh my gosh. Like it just went from being like one of the most depressing days of my mission to one of the happiest. And one of those men actually ended up being baptized , I think the day before the transfer ended.

We were able to help 'em be baptized and I was just thinking a lot about that during this recording, and I just hope everyone who may listen to this understands that, God really is there to listen to you. Fasting really does have power behind it. When we sacrifice, food and water things that are really important to us.

[00:31:00] God sees that God sees every sacrifice, and even if we can't sacrifice that food or water something else he sees those sacrifices that we're making and he hears every single prayer and he wants to answer them and he does answer them and he wants to and does bless us. And I just know without a doubt that he's there and that he is always listening to us.

All right, Becca. What is something that is weighing on you that you think fasting could help you out with?

Yeah, I think a lot of it is I. It is more of like a. I think for, since getting home, I've just struggled a little bit with that mindset of oh, I feel like I'm taking steps back now from who I was and the mission and feeling oh, am I going back to the person I was before, which I wasn't a terrible person before, but I made some pretty positive good changes in the mission and I know.

I've fasted for that and I know fasting can take care of that. Help me to, [00:32:00] continue to move forward with those changes and continue to apply the things I've learned, not just let it all go to waste. And I also know just, I've got, I've just got some things that are in the near future, going back to school and all that, that entails that, I don't.

I am studying psychology, but I don't know if that's what I'm going to continue with fasting and praying about that can help me find those answers and receive that guidance.

Thank you for sharing that and walking through that with me. Let's go to the wrap up questions here based on, this project is called Can You Feel? So Now based on Alma chapter five verse 26, and it reads, and now behold, I say to you, if you have experienced a change of heart. And if you have felt to sing the Song of Redeeming Love, I would ask, can you feel So now, so Becca, talk to us just a little bit more about this change of heart that you've experienced and what that looks like and how you hope to continue with that change of heart.

Yeah. I'm need to think about that one for a second. I think.

I've talked a lot about this, but I think my change of heart came as I came to change who I was as I came to emulate [00:33:00] Christ more in my life. I had read that section and preached my gospel before chapter six about the attributes of Jesus Christ. And I'd read that a couple times and did a little bit of personal progress .

As a young woman, but I didn't ever really strive to accept and just take those attributes and really apply them in my life. But my heart changed. My heart softened. My heart stopped worrying. My heart trusted more as I came. To as I came to know Jesus Christ and came to become more like him by striving to have those attributes.

Awesome. Love that. All right. Next question is, and if you have felt to sing the Song of Redeeming Love, I. What is the song of Redeeming Love? , You love music, you play the piano. I heard you quote a couple of hymns whether you knew it or not. While you were talking here, you quoted lines from hymns and everything, so you've got music in you.

But talk to me about the song of Redeeming love and how that is different from the music [00:34:00] that maybe we sing it on a regular.

Yeah, I think when I think of that phrase to sing the song of redeeming love, I just think of. Just the most absolute, just like joyful bliss, just knowing that I've been saved, that I've been redeemed by my savior, Jesus Christ.

'cause , music helps me feel happy, helps me feel joy, helps me get rid of things, but just to sing that song of redeeming love. I can't even describe it. I just have that image in my mind of just like someone just so carefree and just so joyful knowing that Jesus Christ came and he lived, he came to this earth.

He lived, he died for us and he was resurrected. He lives now, he has a body of flesh and bone and because of that we'll be able to, have perfect [00:35:00] bodies and we can be forgiven and we can try again because he loves us

thank you for sharing that. Now, last question, and we're gonna jump in that time machine.

We're gonna go ahead a handful of years and and you and I, we're gonna get out of the time machine and we'll encounter you. 10 years from now and for whatever reason, you are living back up to that nickname of worrywart and you're not feeling that confidence in the Lord for whatever reason, whatever that may look like.

I want you to sit down with yourself and help yourself remember what you feel today and what you felt the last 18 months to help remind, future you to maybe get back into that state of mind.

Yeah. I think just to remind myself of the trust I've placed in my Heavenly Father, and I always just love the image of just thinking of Christ's hands with the scars of the nails and his hands, and just thinking about my life, sitting in those hands, just thinking about him [00:36:00] hugging me with those hands and just.

Cradling me helping me and knowing that, I've trusted him. I've placed everything there. And just to remind myself to do that again, just it. It seems like it should be a one time event, but it's a constant thing we have to do every day to place our lives in his hands, and I think I would just remind myself to do that, just to trust him, trust his atonement, trust God's plan, and trust their complete and pure love for me.

I love that. Thank you so much, Becca. Before we close up, you mind barren testimony and espanol for us.

Yeah, I'd love to. It'll be a little rough. It's been a little bit, but no,

amen. Amen. Thank you so much, Becca. I really appreciate you sitting down and recording this with me. It's been very helpful for me and I hope it's been meaningful for you also.

Yeah, absolutely. Thank you.